*THE TRUTH IS OUT*

suddenly,
the truth is out.
and both of us got hurt.
i just need you to tell me the truth,
and finally you did.


i felt sorry for you to feel guilty.
you ought to, you've cheated on me.
but i dont need you to feel guilty and
stay on to this relationship like a leech just because
you are feeling fucking guilty.
it does not work that way.
and i rather cut all ties/ contacts with you if
you feel this way.

and well,
you suggested it.
and you'll get it.
and now u know how i truly treat my ex.
get use to it.

it would take me forever to pick up
the million of pieces you broke me.
no matter how long it takes,
i will do it.
i'll not let you destroy me again
like how you did on valentines day 2009.
thanks for cheating on me that day.

no more tear will be shed for you.
i'm done.
i'm done with everything
everything we do now shall not have any regrets.
it's a mutual understanding.
and i really hope you'll find your perfect man;
no matter where he is.

i tried to be perfect,
but your expectations was too high.
and lastly,
i'm really sorry to have hurt you as well.

and i'm really sorry for you to feel that
13months together was all because
of guilt.
thanks for telling me.
take care always.
take care liebe.

PEACE OUT!

*SOULMATE*

Soulmate- Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone


PEACE OUT!

*SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH*

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


PEACE OUT!

*OUTING*

today was batch 81 graduation.
in a blink of an eye, another batch
have graduated.

their outdoor and indoor performance was not bad.
but no one can ever overtake our batch 80 indoor performance.
lol.
it was memoriable. those were the days.
and soon,we are no longer 'juniors'
now we are 'seniors'
it doesnt make any difference anyways.

i'm happy that ian made it to band A.
yes, another saxophone.
and most like hazmi will be playing sax as well;
i wont be lonely.
yay me.


soon after lunch,
we helped yd do some bunk cleaning before we headed for
our usual badminton session at 3pm.
the feeling of playing badminton back
was awesome.
it's been a very long time since
i've played badminton.
and i'm happy that i could play it again.

it was around 4.15pm when i received a call from fadlee.
we are all released early.
zhichao, yong di and i
showered then we headed out.
they were heading to town for movie
while i was still deciding whether to go;
i had lots of things with me.

then on the bus,
i changed my mind and we headed to cine.
met up with bingjian and steven.
bought our tickets,
2012!

then we head for some 'window shopping' since we had
1.5hours till the movie starts.
out of no where,
we suddenly decided to take neoprints!
lol....

the whole process made us feel so child-like.
lol

right after neoprint we headed to estellar for dinner,
then up back to the arcade for some games
before heading down again for movie.

2012 is a great show. maybe because i have the interest of doomsday.
but hey, the visuals are breathtaking.
a very expected plot.
oh well.

throughout the whole show,
'noah's ark' kept playing in my head.
haha.
oh well, check out the trailer;
http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/2012/
and check out the movie,
it's not really that bad.
=)

after movie,
yd and i headed to plaza sing for cakes but
cafe cartel had no cakes left.
so we walked around and finally decided
on BK for hersley choc cake.
lol.

the whole trip made me forget about the
problems i'm facing now.
but it was just momentarily.
i have to face my problems and not trying to
hide from it.

i just feel so lost right now~

PEACE OUT!

*UNLUCKY ME*

how unlucky can one get?
maybe karma is still not done with me.

i left home 30mins earlier then i should;
thinking that it was raining cats and dogs
and the slow afternoon traffic.

took 963 to alexandra,
bought my concession;
yes, normal day.

then everything changed once i
board 93.
it began to rain heavier!

the driver drove slowly.
then at around queensway,
traffic slowed down,
the x-junction traffic light was not working!
there were road marshals guiding the traffic!
by then, i was about 30minutes into my journey.

then at around adam road!
there was another freaking jam!
at the T-junction along adam road,
2 cars collided....
OMG!
it's just a freaking coincidence i guess.

ok, by then it's already 1.30pm.
report is at 2pm!
omg!
i'm gonna be super late!
called anthony and informed him i'm gonna be late.

arrived macritchie at 1.50pm!
=_=!
got into a cab thinking that i'll reach
around 2.15pm latest in whitehouse.
but NOOOOO......
a fucking tree collasped on upper thimson road!
and it caused a traffic jam from sembawang hill food center
till the entrance of the highway!
by the time i reached bunk, soaking wet,
it was 2.30pm!!!

ran up to whitehouse,
changed shoes then head to tonnie wei room.
omg,
i was 45minutes late!
argh.
but thank god encik was not angry.
phew...

vetting for commando parade was ok.
reached home finally at 10pm!
gosh!

tml report at 8am.
and batch 81 finally graduating tml!
yay them!

PEACE OUT!

*DISCO STICK*

yongdi never fails to cheer me up with
his nonsense; 'direct' approach to life..

hope the KL trip with you guys be materialised!


PEACE OUT!

*HIATUS*

hi!
i've been on a very long hiatus.

i've been pretty busy lately.
concert preparation,
ns,
erm......
erm....

OK FINE!
i was busy thanks to MAPLE!

maple as in the GAME maple and not the girl maple!

oh well,
it's all started with the band B peeps,
then it spread to band C,
then since i'm transfered to band A,
they got influenced as well.

it's a nice game to relax and play as a team.

i'll post up a group pic one day.
=)

oh well, swsy concert went by pretty quickly.
in a blink of an eye,
everything is over.

i'll update the pics up next!
be prepared.

oh ya!
i've finally watch the latest
episode of gossip girls.

i cant believe what i'm seeing. hilary duff is the new star in that show.
she's well known for her oh-so-squeaky-clean-girl image
that everyone loves.
BUT in gossip girls,
i guess she is making her debut as an open actress.
she had sex scene (non explicit of course) and even
a threesome with a guy and a girl;
oh ya! she kissed the girl!!!

* i kissed a girl and i like it*~
lesbo.

http://www.dailyfill.com/Hilary-Duff-Threesome-41116/

anyways~
i'll update the SWSY concert entry next.
=)

till then,

xoxo,
johan ezran

*ACPC*

since they could only accomodate
minimal players on stage,
those section with excess people
are to help with the fatigue party.
=_=!
so basically,
DO NOTHING....
oops...

here comes the pics!
us with msg cecilia and stf morrison

men.... *teeeet* john, myself, fhairil and bimbo foo. wheeee.... bimbo foo and i ok.... darlie commercial ermmm cock eyed.... reminds u of anyone??? oops... bimbos.. partial batch 80 from band B&C =)


PEACE OUT!

*BAND B*

the day when batch 80
posting out to different bands...
band A,B,C & central band.

really hope that we wont forget
each other!

go out again!!!
=)

batch 80~
woooo!


PEACE OUT!

*POP*

finally,
the day had arrived.
our graduation from
Basic Musician Course.

and we are presenting 2 items today.
keep in mind the item have been pre planned
few weeks ago
and finally conceptualised
since 2 days ago.

so it's not bad for
2 days work.

nicholas ng was incharge of the formal
drills/ formation segment.

applause for him.
he had done a very good job with his segment.

and the informal segment was equally well done.
i'm sure it will be remembered always.

thanks fhairil, abg joe for the idea.
1 week ago, we brainstormed in ip 5
and 1 week from then,
the stage band was formed.

thanks to bimbo foo, fhairil, steven and bj
for having so much courage to dance.
heee.

thanks to the stage band and the 'soprano girls'
for the music.

i will try to get hold of the videos for that day!
i'll upload it soon!
hahaa.

take care
batch 80!


PEACE OUT!

*EUGENE TAY'S 21*

the day started off by meeting fatty neo
at raffles place mrt.

took the train down to pasir ris...

along the way,
we kept reminiscing
about our journey/day in tekong.
haha.

then we took a bus to the chalet.
met up with mimi
and we headed to the chalet.

picture time.
eugene and co and i

met new 'band' friends there. fatty neo, mimi, eugene and i platoon 4 secion 1 (partial) happy birthday! leopard platoon 4 (partial) wheeee heh... i'm up to no good.... smashed... "wtf" thanks eugene... =)

had a really fun time there.
stayed overnight with fatty neo.
played games,
watch tv.....
haha.

soon it was 8am,
i had to leave...
swsy band prac is at 11am!
=x


HAPPY 21st EUGENE TAY!
=)


PEACE OUT!

*SPSB IBM 27th*

my first IBM as a viewer.

all thanks to shan for forcing me to go
to support her 'no.5'
=_=!


this time spsb was conducted
under Adrian Chiang.

gosh!
i missed the sax section so much!
=)

lucas bitch euuuuu bitch neo bitch owwwwww emong (forever short) =) chloe SONG YIN!! =)

well done guys!


PEACE OUT!

*WEEKLY UPDATE! (20-25 JULY)*

20 JULY 2009
audiometry check up at
MMI, NUH.
i really hope i'm not deaf or anything...
=(

25 JULY 2009
ndp rehearsal. yet again.
nothing to do....
lol...
ok, storing more off...
and more goody bag!
yay!!!

PEACE OUT!

*WEEKLY UPDATE! (14-19 JULY)*

14 JULY 2009
yen jia min came up all the way
to whitehouse to visit me.
YES!
he ORD today!
he manage to differ his ns
for MEd school!
i hate smart people.
had breakfast before he left!
hope to see u in 5 years time
DR YEN. =)

15 JULY 2009
after lunch, batch 80
left camp for no.1 fitting
at tiong bahru area.
yongdi's countrywomen came up to him
to take pictures...
"rena nang manga bakla"
heeee
soon, we ended around 3pm.
and we were allowed to dismiss from there.
BEST!
abg joe and i went over to a bakery
and bought some 'famous' egg tart.
it's really nice!!!
headed home soon after.

16 JULY 2009
since some of us had our no.3 done,
we were sent to help stf to clean/clear band store.
omg.
really old instruments from B&H.
wierd looking intruements...
hahaa...
oh well...
knew alot of things on how to
maintain your instrument to it's prime condition...
=)

19 JULY 2009
finally, end of the week.
band prac was as usual.
right after band prac,
shan and i headed to anchor point for lunch
at subway!
after lunch, we headed back to ikea..
shop awhile before going home,
we bought some tidbits from the food section.
=)
dark chocolate!
omg!


PEACE OUT!