*clubbing with sya*

met clement late.

haha.

was super tired.

was lacking of sleep the night before.

met him at

marina.

we watched,

MR BEAN'S holidaystupid show....

later after that,

we went to play 3 games of bowling each.OMG lah.

my standard drop badly.

scoring less than 100 pins each lor.

lost to him in all3 games.....

aftert that, we walked to funan.

bought dinner...

he went home after that.

and i left for work....

=)

nice outing......

Omg lah.
WORK was tiring.
but i had smt to look forward to!
meeting ca and gang for belated bdae clubbing.
haha.....

after work i took a cab down to DBL O.

met with ca and jane.

OMG lah. so freaking alot of MATS lah.....

eeeeeeeeeeee....

cannot take it.

but the company was damn fun lah....

*pics*ca and i.jane and hubby.em and ca.ca and jane....

**************

peace out!

*random-ness*

talked to you on the phone.
erm.
makes me remember the fun past we had.
yes.
i have to move on to.
it's hard ok.
but the 3.5 hrs we chated was a fruitful and an enjoyable one.
deep down inside,
i still love you.
but how am i supposed to tell you?
it will just makes things more complicated as it is.
i'm sorry if i were to lied to you.
YES.
i just realised,
both of us lied to each other on 'that bridge'
i'm so sorry.
it was a white lie.
i didnt want to mislead you any further.
but thank you for making my life more
colourful and an enjoyable one.
i was the most happiest guy on earth.
i shall never forget the time we had with each other,
no matter how short the time maybe,
it was wonderful.
thank you.

*wishes*

INDOCHINE
*adeline
*veronica
*rowena
*joy
*abang fadlee
*farzea
*abang halim
*karun
*adeline
*yong ming
*azli
*farzea
*botak
*jai
*ruben
*other staffs

DINNER @ club street
*adrian
*elise
*peter
*wen qin
*abang paul
*subeksha
*suman
*bishal
*bal

MSN
(by timing)
*dylan koh
*bun chin wayne
*harris
*chin yan
*atikah
*logan
*sek lin
*nigel tan
*jia wei
*chiu hao
*benny
*johnathan james chin
*ryan

EMAIL
*wen gin

FRIENDSTER
*aisyah
*chiu hao
*davina
*ayunie
*ryan sean flores
*wen qin

SMS/call
(by timing)
*aunt
*wei jie
*carrie
*muhaimin
*kelyn
*denise
*melanie
*melissa
*adeline
*farzea
*brian teo
*bjorn
*samuel
*clement chan
*marcus
*eugene kouk
*aunt nor
*razinah
*shafique
*atikah
*sandy
*sarah
*colin
*johnathan

OUTING
*cedric
*clement tan
*aisyah
*em MAGARITA
*kim
*jane and hubby

BAND PRAC
*siti
*yongqi
*yimei
*mabel
*HX

CLUBBING
*wan cheng
*bjorn
*hasif
*fazil
*amin
*eugene
*eric
*danny
*strangers =(

SWS
*alice
*yun shan
*farra
*hui mei
*muhaimin
*shirley
*colin
*joeven
*brian!! =)

wad a long list.....
wad a bunch of wonderful people i've met
in my 19 years of life.
love you guys to the core!
PS: sorry for names which i left out.....hehe...........

*19th bdae*

soon later at 2.30pm,
i made my way to INDOCHINE.
omg.
training was boring.
talking abt WINEs and stuff.
ZZzzZZzzZZzzzzzz.....
after briefing @ 6.30pm,
i was 'surprised' with a bdae cake.
whole crew sang a bdae song for me...
and i recieved an ang-pao. =)
later on,
adrian, elise, peter, wen qin, subeksha, suman and bishal
went over to INDOCHINE club street to have dinner.
=)
LOVESSSSSS.... <3







later on,
they surprised me!
haha.
ANOTHER bdae cake.
OMG...
i'm gonna explode fat soon lah.
i was abit high ar.....
had some chardonay (white wine) with starters
and some shiraz (red wine) with the beffy main course.
BURB....
and lots of mango juice.
haha
=)
went home at about 10.30pm.

*19th bdae*

aight.
woke up super late.
set my alarm at 1pm.
and forgot that i'm meeting cedric for lunch
@ 1pm.


DUMB me.


so in real time, i woke up @ 12.45pm.
(my alarm is 15 mins faster...)
then i took my time to bathe and change
to get ready for training.
it was about 1pm when i saw cedric message.
he is already at city hall waiting for me...


OMFG lah.......!!

i quickly change and took a cab down at
RAFFLES CITY.
i reached there 30minutes late lah!
argh!
we decided to eat at
'outta of the pan'
at B1.

i ate some lamb-whole-wheat-crepes thingy.
he ate some salmon-whole-wheat- crepes thingy.
i miss cedric so much lah.
it's been eons since we met.
it was nice to see ya again.

*eve of BDAE*

OMG!
haha.
today is havoc ar.........
after band...
went home.
was ready to go out to meet wen yang.
to count watch a midnight movie.
but then,
he was last minute 'sick'
WADEVA....
haha....

then wan cheng sms.
she asked to go clubbing....
OMG lah....
it's been awhile since i club with the group.
quickly change and then sms bjorn.
met up with hasif, fazil, eugene, wan cheng and bjorn.
haha.
havoc lah....
gonna spank WC bad man.
she keep telling everyone it's my bdae.


AND


stangers came up to me and wishing me and kissing me!
WTF lah!
haha...
hilarious man....wc and i with BUTT statues.....bjorn and i at club.bjorn and i on the way to BM macD.ate there.
reached home @ 6pm.


thanks the darlings for counting down with me.

btw, HAPPY BDAE TO WEIJIE!
bloody DRUNKYARD.
sms me crap.
haha.
miss you like shit.

=)

~moving on in life could be the most difficult thing to do~

my astrology....

Sun Aspects Pluto

The nature of a planet aspecting the Sun in the solar return chart and the aspect between them color the interpretation of both planets. Pluto aspects to the Sun (which usually last for a number of consecutive years) indicate an increased awareness of power. Awareness can come through conflicts and struggle with yourself or others, but it is the awareness that is most significant. How people get, maintain and use power for personal goals or for the control of others is more important than the struggle itself. It is the awareness which gives you a greater ability to control your own life. Power usage in confrontations and everyday situations will become more obvious, but even subtle shifts in power will be evident to you as you learn to recognize psychological motivations and manipulations. For some individuals this is a time to study psychology; however, many will notice examples of obsessive, compulsive, phobic, or manipulative behaviors in themselves or others regardless of their educational background. Unconscious needs are intensified and life becomes more complicated. Ambition and self-control are the more positive manifestations. Learning to deal with life on a deeper level is the hallmark of the Plutonian consciousness.


Mercury Aspects Venus

When Mercury is conjunct Venus in the solar return chart, you are more apt to have confidence in your decisions and intellectual capabilities. This is a wonderful time to be in school or to take a course since learning is likely to be an enjoyable experience. You may also make great progress in what most people consider to be a difficult topic or a subject you have had particular trouble with in the past. Facts can be easier to comprehend during this time and the information you receive should be applicable to your present needs or skills.

YOUR RELATIONSHIP STYLE

YOUR RELATIONSHIP STYLE
The first step in discovering your best match is getting a clear picture of your own relationship style. Good or bad, your experiences with your parents -- in childhood and adulthood -- play a key role in establishing your relationship style and the kind of person who you're best suited for now. Based on your experiences, you will probably fall naturally into one of three categories:

*Isolator: If you are an Isolator, you need a lot of personal space. Isolators minimize emotion, are often guarded and unconsciously push people away, keeping them at a distance.
*Fuser: If you are a Fuser, you have an insatiable appetite for closeness and don't like being alone. Fusers crave attention and are sometimes described as clingy.
*Ambivalent: If you are an Ambivalent, you are a little bit of both. Ambivalents like to pull away, yet they want to feel close at the same time. They can also be confusing and hard to read.


YOU ARE AN AMBIVALENT

YOUR CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES
Your childhood experiences show that you are an Ambivalent. As a child, you probably received plenty of love and affection from your parents but were also allowed to form your own sense of independence. Your parents may have upset you and let you down at times, but your childhood needs were essentially met. Therefore, as an adult, you have traits that are common in both Isolators and Fusers, two polar opposites. This means that your relationship style includes many interesting contradictions. You've been known to both push people away and expect them to dote on you at the same time. Freedom is just as appealing to you as being showered with affection.

YOUR PERFECT PARTNER
As an Ambivalent, you're uniquely qualified to have a successful relationship with a partner from either category: Fusers or Isolators.In your case, "happily ever after" depends on which role you find yourself adopting more often. If you're usually the outgoing one in the relationship, often seeking affection and attention, you're more of a Fuser. This means that your perfect partner is actually your opposite type, an Isolator. You may have guessed just the contrary, that your best match would be someone who would shower you with all the love and affection you crave. But happiness for you means partnering with someone who will respect your privacy and support you when you want to do independent activities, much like your parents did.If you're often a private person who likes her space, you're more of an Isolator. This means that your perfect partner is actually your opposite type, a Fuser. Contrary to what you might have thought, your best match is not someone who gives you all the space and freedom you crave. Instead, your best bet for long-term happiness is partnering with someone who dotes on you, someone who shows his affection and expresses his emotions easily and often, just as your parents did.

http://ivos.ivillage.com/assessment/exec/perfectpartner/results?&o=dcm,pp,iv,el,ivpremium,tp,0,

JOHAN EZRAN

J: Lives life for fun.
O: Best in bed.
H: Have a very good personality and looks.
A: likes to drink
N: Dead Sexy.

E: A GOOD KISSER
Z: Always ready.
R: F*ckin crazy
A: likes to drink
N: Dead Sexy.


*quite true...............
haha.........
=)
taken this from yuting's blog....
http://slacker-tingz.blogspot.com/



A: likes to drink
B: Likes people
C: is wild and crazy
D: Has one of the best personalities ever.
E: A GOOD KISSER
F: People adore you.
G: never let people tell you what to do
H: Have a very good personality and looks.
I: Loyal to those you love.
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: Makes dating fun.
N: Dead Sexy.
O: Best in bed.
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: F*ckin crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: Loyal to those you love.
U: Really like to chill.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z: Always ready.

What does your name say?

my IQ....

126
You scored 126 on Tickle's IQ test.

This means that based on your answers, your IQ score is between116 and 126. Most people's IQs are between 70 and 130.

In fact, 95% of all people have IQs within that range. 68% of people score between 80 and 120. There's more to intelligence than a single number, a single score or a single label. Tickle uses four distinguishable Intelligence Scales in the Ultimate IQ Test. By analyzing your individual scores on those four scales, we are able to look beyond the raw IQ score into how you process information and thereby determine your Intellectual Type.

Your Intellectual Type Is:

You have an unusually strong balance between verbal and mathematical skills combined with a strength in the visual realm. Your most enduring talent, however, is that your idea center never shuts down. That's what makes you an Inspired Inventor. You come up with insights that surprise even yourself, and that's because you might not always be aware when your brain is working on the next great idea. Most of the time, Inspired Inventors such as yourself have a plan brewing in their heads — even if they don't know it at the time. You are particularly adept at brainstorming, and coming up with multiple solutions for any problem because your brain never switches into the "off" position. You're like Sir Isaac Newton in this way — even commonplace events like an apple falling from a tree can be worked into the ever-present concepts that are formulating in your mind. This is the reason people flock to you for fresh ideas, advice, and insight.

Your keen ability to process new information, makes you an indispensable team thinker. If, for example, you and your friends were stranded on a desert island, you would be able to figure out how to live in an unfamiliar landscape. Despite the newness of the situation, you would be in your element, generating ideas and potential solutions. You have a unique way of solving problems. So trust yourself, and take every chance you can to share your insightful ideas with others.

Great Jobs For You
Because of the way you process information,
these are just some of the many careers in
which you could excel:
*Architect
*Designer
*Engineer
*Physicist
*Astronomer

Some of Your Greatest Talents
You've got tons of strengths.
It wouldn't surprise us if you:
*Are incredibly resourceful
*Find inspiration in the mundane
*Look at things in ways no one else has thought of
*Can give perspective
*Are a visionary




Your 4 Intelligence Scales

Now let's look at the factors that contribute to you being an Inspired Inventor with a 126 IQ score.


Mathematical Intelligence

You scored in the 80th percentile on the mathematical intelligence scale.This means that you scored higher than 70% - 80% of people who took the test and that 20% - 30% scored higher than you did. The scale above illustrates this visually. Your mathematical intelligence score represents your combined ability to reason and calculate. You scored relatively high, which means you're probably the one your friends look to when splitting the lunch bill or calculating your waitresses' tip. You may or may not be known as a math whiz, but number crunching might come a little easier to you than it does others.


Visual-Spatial Intelligence

You scored in the 100th percentile on the visual-spatial intelligence scale.This means that you scored higher than 90% - 100% of people who took the test and that 0% - 10% scored higher than you did. The scale above illustrates this visually. The visual-spatial component of intelligence measures your ability to extract a visual pattern and from that envision what should come next in a sequence. Your score was relatively high, which could mean that you're the one navigating the map when you're on an outing with friends. You have, in some capacity, an ability to think in pictures. Maybe this strength comes out in subtle ways, like how you play chess or form metaphors.


Linguistic Intelligence

You scored in the 80th percentile on the linguistic intelligence scale.This means that you scored higher than 70% - 80% of people who took the test and that 20% - 30% scored higher than you did. The scale above illustrates this visually. Linguistic abilities include reading, writing and communicating with words. Tickle's test measures knowledge of vocabulary, ease in completing word analogies and the ability to think critically about a statement based on its semantic structure. Your score was relatively high, which could mean you know your way around a bookstore and maybe like to bandy about the occasional 25-cent word to impress friends.


Logical Intelligence

You scored in the 90th percentile on the logical intelligence scale.This means that you scored higher than 80% - 90% of people who took the test and that 10% - 20% scored higher than you did. The scale above illustrates this visually. Tickle's logical intelligence questions assess your ability to think things through. The questions determine the extent to which you use reasoning and logic to determine the best solution to a problem. Your logic score was relatively high, which could mean that when the car breaks down, your friends look to you to help figure out not only what's wrong, but how to fix it and how you're going to get to the next gas station.

hannah? joao? "my NAME is johan"

ok.
lately there's wierd customers.
once, last week,
i was stationed in station F.
together with jai.
it was 11.30pm.
there was one table left.
they came in late.
they were from arab.
ya.
arab drink beers and wines.
wierd huh.
anyways,
this lady asked wads my name.
i told her,
"my NAME is johan"
oh, and she translated it into
'hannah"
ya. as in a female name.
but according to her,
it's john popes name.
lalal.
watever
as i said,
"my NAME is johan"!!!!!

they yesterday,
i was doing indoor.
again with jai.
was station at A.
there was a function.
then this lady asked wads my name.
yes.
another KPO person.
then she eagerly translate me name in portugese.
this time it's "joao"

wads up with ppl with translating my name?
dots........

19 things i need to do before i turn 19.

01- move on in life.
02- do well for my appeal interview.
03- continue my course of studies
04- get to know "the clique" better.
05- improve my sax tone.
06- open up to people.
07- give others a chance.
08- get physically well.
09- get emotionally well.
10- love people around me.
11- be able to play "scootin' On Hardrock"
12- believing in LOVE exist again.
13- say sorry to those people who i've wronged.
14- wake up early every morning.
15- sleep early every night.
16- meet up with my bestie, CA
17- meet up with my bestie, BRIAN
18- make my mom happy; grabbing ISLAM.
19- LOSE weight.

all this need to be done in 12 days.
possible?lets see.

*messy*

life been a bitch lately.
argh...
i'm not sure whether i can take it anymore.
erm...
everything is in a mess.
from studies-life-love-music.
YES.
even music.
where i always release stress and doubts
by just playing music.


STUDIES.
it's fucked up.
had a 1hr lecture with my mom
to continue the course since i'm 2/3 done.
bllalala...
oh man,
i think i have to give circuit analysis ANOTHEr chance.
fucked-up module lah.
argh...

LIFE/ love life.
ok.
it's complicated now,
VERY complicated.
i just dont know what to do.
i've tried pretending.
BUT
it always break down.
i just cant stop this feelings
inside of me.
i just hate it.
i guess,this is the FIRST time where i'm
emotionally attached to someone....
it's scary ok,thinking about it.

"there were moments where our eyes met.
i cant help it.
i just dont wanna you to see the pain through my eyes.
i just glance away.
i too see the windows of your soul.
and i know you too dont like the tension
surrounding us.
i know that you lost feelings for me.
but sadly, i still love you.
i guess no matter what happen,
i should move on in life."

move on johan.
it's over.
move on ya.

thanks to those people who really care.
and sharing my problems with you.
your presence made me feel better.

**********************

MY HEART

Irwansyah ft. Acha
My Heart

di sini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia ku denganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari-hari paling indah
terukir nama kita berdua
di sini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayangku akan hilang

if you love somebody could we be this strong
i willl fight to win, our love will conquer all
wouldn’t risk my love even just one night
our love will stay in my heart

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
di sini surga kita

bilakah kita mencintai yg lain
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayangku akan hilang

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayangku akan hilang

if you love somebody could we be this strong
i willl fight to win, our love will conquer all
wouldn’t risk my love even just one night
our love will stay in my heart

NUS dance synergy.

this was the song which was played
in NUS dance synergy performance last saturday.
went to watch it at UCC with moo and johnathan.
this song was danced by a solo guy.
it moved me to tears.
seriously.
omg lah.
the dance wasn't that good.
but the lyrics of the song,
really touched me.
emo........

kudos CEDRIC.
nice performance.

SEPERATE LIVES
Phil Collins

You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you're alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can't go on just holding on to time
Now that we're living separate lives

Well I held on to let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we're living (living)
Separate lives

Ooh, it's so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall (build that wall)
Yes, you build that wall (build that wall)
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might (I might) find myself looking in your eyes
But for now, we'll go on living separate lives
Yes for now, we'll go on living separate lives
Separate lives

FOOD blog.

btw ppl.
i'm doing up a new blog.
it will be a food theme.
it will be ready end of march.
now i'm still doing the programming.
CA if ya free, i NEED your help.
(in programming)

any suggestion for the blog addy?
tag me for ideas.

pls support once blog is ready.

Thank You.

UPs & DOWNs in life.............

ok.
i'm bored.
just got back from SP with sya.
OMG lah.
lifes sucks now.
i FAILED my repeated module.
YES.
I FAILED.
fucked.
have to go back there and appeal.
i cant think of any reasons to give.
it's me.
i was too lazy to even go school.
haha.
it will be a miracle
if i were to continue.

my parents have been supportive though.
when i got home last night,
the house fridge was filled with courses.
most from private schools.

i have to look for a new course if my
appeal doesnt go through.

life's been a BITCH to me lately.

yesterday,
i was having attachment.
then i felt the urge to go to the toilet.
i placed my phone into my shirt pocket.
after peeing,
i went to wash my hands.
i was bending down coz the damn sink was low
my phone slipped out and dropped into
the clogged sink.
FUCK.
luckily it was off.
i tried to dry it.
kena scolded by SELINA (aka mary -virgin mary)
for going to the toilet and drying my phone.
WTF lah.
my phone IS MORE IMPORTANT
than your slave-operator job.

i took a half day to check my results
and thought of sending my phone for repairs.
as you know,
i failed. AGAIN.

but things change for the better.
my phone made a full recovery soon later.

now, i'm gonna take a nap.
then i'm working later @ 7pm till 11pm.
then ton-ing out with khalis.
haiz.
wish everything will turn up well.



i'm still thinking of you baby. =(

have you.........

HAVE YOU..........

.......... lost someone whom you really loved?
.......... used someone as a rebound for your past r/s?
.......... instead, fall for that person?
.......... live in guilt of not telling the person of your intentions.
.......... woke up in a crying; dreaming you lost that person?
and realised that you are in love with that person?
.......... hide your feelings all this while; and when you
realised it, it's too late to tell?
.......... wrote a letter pouring your heart out for that person?
.......... been repiled with just an 'ok' for your effort?
.......... been hurt so badly that you lost the believe of
true love?
.......... been pretending and show no emotions to
the situation?
.......... GIVEN UP?


DO YOU..........

.......... feel lonely once everything is over?
.......... feel empty?
.......... felt you lost your other half?
.......... miss talking to that person?
.......... miss having a good time?.......... miss talking to that person before you sleep?
.......... miss hearing that person's voice when you first see daylight?
.......... keep everthing inside and bottle it up?
.......... wipe your tears away before that person sees you being sad?
.......... pretend that you will be fine and you will actually be not?
.......... still love that PERSON?

*-LOVE HURTS-*