*messy*

life been a bitch lately.
argh...
i'm not sure whether i can take it anymore.
erm...
everything is in a mess.
from studies-life-love-music.
YES.
even music.
where i always release stress and doubts
by just playing music.


STUDIES.
it's fucked up.
had a 1hr lecture with my mom
to continue the course since i'm 2/3 done.
bllalala...
oh man,
i think i have to give circuit analysis ANOTHEr chance.
fucked-up module lah.
argh...

LIFE/ love life.
ok.
it's complicated now,
VERY complicated.
i just dont know what to do.
i've tried pretending.
BUT
it always break down.
i just cant stop this feelings
inside of me.
i just hate it.
i guess,this is the FIRST time where i'm
emotionally attached to someone....
it's scary ok,thinking about it.

"there were moments where our eyes met.
i cant help it.
i just dont wanna you to see the pain through my eyes.
i just glance away.
i too see the windows of your soul.
and i know you too dont like the tension
surrounding us.
i know that you lost feelings for me.
but sadly, i still love you.
i guess no matter what happen,
i should move on in life."

move on johan.
it's over.
move on ya.

thanks to those people who really care.
and sharing my problems with you.
your presence made me feel better.

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