*FYI*

have you ever check out
whats have been happening
before u make those remarks?

so u ASSUMED and INDIRECTLY hurt
some people who happened to see what you worte.

i'm not a
good player. I ADMIT.
coz i always remind myself that there is always
a better player out there.
thats why i keep practicing till i get somehting
perfect.
and i dont have to act as one ( a good player).
cause i know i'm not a PERFECT PLAYER.

YEAH.
who doesnt want to perform
in such a 'grand hall'
it an honour to be playing there.

but the point is,
we are just going there to help out
and experience how does it feels like playing
together with main band.

dont get me wrong.
i dont wanna start an arguement.
it's already been settled.
and leave it as it is.

yes, of course you are being missed too.
but people do change and move on.
but never forget your roots.
where you came from and grow
into such a fine musician.

see ya around.
take care bro.
=)

PEACE OUT!

*bloody bugger*

ok,
i'm pissed off at someone.
super pissed.

firstly,
i didnt ask you to come along on friday
and yet i got shits from you.

was it my fault that u were 'touched'?
pls lah hor,
I DID FUCKINGLY HELP YOU
but u rejected me.
and you seemed to like
'fugly' touching you.
and i presume since u pushed me
away,
you wanted to be with 'fugly'.

and today
then all of the fucking blue,
you tell melvin and alice
that i left you
and pushed u closer to 'fugly'
wtf.
pls lah.

i'm still fucking pissed at your comment.
you wanna black labeled me,
do it to your friends.
mofo.

cant believe i actually cared for you.
you unappreciative brat.

still have the gutts to ask
me go fab sunday with you.
*pui*


*******************
and i threw my temper at someone.
i'm sorry.
i didnt meant it.
haiz.
you catched me at a wrong timing.
argh.
shit man.
i'm super sorry kenny.
=x

like what dylan said,
" i need to control my emotions well,
let it be love, hatred, anger etc.
dont let them overpower you."

PEACE OUT!

*swsy/ ike*

slept at 7am.
=x

woke up at 1.45pm.
i was late for swsy band prac.
took a shower and rushed out.
took cab down to UPCC.

band was FUN.
haha.
though it was small,
we sound more purer.
which was rare for me these days.
every section,
it was one player to a part.

played tenor today and complete
a sax quartet.
hah.
yun shan and alice (altos)

saxy tenor. =)

i really need to buck up
on playing tenor.
MORE AIR!
haiz.
need to master those piece playing
for beautiful sunday.
gonna practice before noname comes
in for practice this thursday.

went over to ghim moh for dinner.
appertizers kang kong tofu, prawns and egg hot plate
sweet and sour XXXX CHICKEN!=)

after dinner,
we accompanied mel to pasir ris.
oh man,
5 more days till we see each other again
ike came along.
she tried commiting suicide...
gay ike.
=)

once we send mel off,
alice and i went over to
play pool at marina square.
omg lah.
i'm still NO good at pool!
i wanna improve.
someone help me.
=x
alice pick up really well.
=)

on our way to esplanade,
i nearly trip.
wth.
NEARLY.
but then,
i did a posed pic. lolx.
damn funny.

after that we took bus home
from esplanade.
haha.
=)

PEACE OUT!

*friendster horoscope*

saw something interesting in
friendster.
it's about my horoscope.
haha.
to those who i've been talking to should know
how i felt when i saw this.

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
The Bottom Line
Looking to add romance to your life?
Look no further than your social circle.

In Detail
If you're looking to add some romance to your
life today, look no further than your current
social circle. You have a lot in common with
someone who has a lot of interest in you --
haven't you noticed? It's time to consider giving
them a try. You might be afraid that by getting
romantic you could risk losing a friendship, but
there is a strong foundation there, and the odds
are definitely in your favor. Put out a few feelers
and see what other people think about the two of you.

DOES IT MEAN ANYTHING?

PEACE OUT!

*gary + dinner*

oh well couldn't sleep.

it was around 10am,
when mike call me to come down for
hair appointment.
went over to silvertouch.
wohooo.

did some hair treatment.
my hair is getting more and more
fritzzy.
haiz.

took him 2 hours to repair my hair.
omg.
so many hair products to use now lah.
spend about $150 just for that.

end product, slightly scalp burn and SOFTER hair.
=)

got home and slept.

supposed to meet mel at 1pm at bras basah.
i overslept and he forgot.
=_=!!

called him at 5pm.
he said meet him at bras basah by 6pm.
quickly changed and left.
it was difficult to get a cab.

once in the cab,
i didnt realised it was already 6pm.
it was almost halfway when i realised that
i was 10 mins late.
=x
called melvin
and he said he already bought 'it'.
wth,
so i told the driver to make a u-turn back home lo.
and somemore it was the 'peak' period.
=_=!!

got home,
no one was home.
grandpa soon came back.
i was super hungry...

i was happy that gary
invited me out for dinner.
lolx.
or else i would have eaten alone.
=(

went over to ghim moh,
met him,
then walked all the way to holland V.
just to find chicken just for me.
how thoughtful of him.
=)

ate at holland V.
my chicken fillet and fried rice and chicken nuggets. gary and his food. =)

after dinner,
walked around holland V.
showed him eski bar and siam reap 1.
=)
walked around holland V till after 11pm.
then he send me to the bus stop.

took some pics while waiting for 100. =)

got home before 12am.
=)

btw,
was FORCED to take
a pic with sis in the afternoon. she's pretty right?
=)

PEACE OUT!

*PPL DO THIS*

Create your own Friend Test here

*SO MUCH OF FRIDAY the 13th*

went over to sp band.
felt draggy.
OMFG.
first time after 3 years.
=x

came late for warm up.
soppy was set up by april!
thanks!

auntie ivy came by.
=)
yeah.
hopefully she's joining in for IBM!
=)

*pics*
hx and iwee

auntie iwee iwee, hx and me (spastic) hx, iwee, april and betty. ******

lao ban came in by 7pm.
played through
dedicatory overture.
=x

left during break time.
felt so bad lah.
pass the sop to april.
and left.
felt bad because,
i'm skipping sectional picture taking session,
and i had skipped for the whole of last week....

went over to dover.
kenny WAS late.
not that long ar...
lets see....
ABOUT 1hour 15mins late ONLY.
haiyoh.
bad start.

went over to IKEA.
missed dinner with alice, jon and alwayn.
=x
yeah,
you have the right to be angry with me.
my fault aights.

had a light dinner there.

took 100 to tanjong pagar.
and we saw....
FLYING BEAR.
haha.
cutes.

walked over to play.
haha.
it was fun.
11pm was 1-4-1.
FUCK.
and the drinks was SUPER FUCKING STRONG.
omg.
i totally lost it,
again.
did some things which i would regret later.
(hopefully not)
PS: alice, i told you are beautiful right? haha.
eventhough i'm partially gone, i still think
you are a chio AUNTIE lo! ahha

*PICS*
"demonised" drinks alice and jon kenny its me.
i think i was high then.
if i recall properly,
i took a pic with
a "fire hazard" 's ASS.
omg lah. me attempting to kiss my PT GF.
but was rejected........haha! ******

alice soon left.
jon, kenny and i stayed till closing.
OMG.
haha.
had supper at maxwell.
the congee was awesome.
=)

walked around then went home.
i was still dizzy.
i tried to control it.
when i got home,
i realised that my keys was with jon.
(long story)
argH!
i wanted to puke lah!
called up my sis.
but damn...
she was outside at some
petrol station pumping her car.
=_=!
and she said she would be back latest by 5.30am.
*looking at HP's watch*
it was 4.30am then!!

controled myself.
exactly at 5.30am, she came.
went home and
self induced vomitting....
i think i drank too much again!
now i'm staring at my lap top
while typing this.
still feeling abit dizzy.
=x
goona sleep soon!
NIGHTS ALL!
=)

SO MUCH OF FRIDAY the 13th.
bleph.

PEACE OUT!

*sws prac*

ok.
didnt get a wink last night.
and i didnt realised that my ankle
was bleeding.

=_=!!
it had been bleeding since the time it was cut
in sentosa.

anyways,
bought breakfast for gramps.

this was our first breakfast together
eversince i was in primary school.
hee.
bought some food
and was back home on time
before breakfast.
ate breakfast together.
grandma
grandpa =)

after that we watch some
old movies together.
haha.

soon by 10am i left home
to meet up with ernan.
his last day in singapore
before he fly back to
philipines tml.

gotta help him
find out some
official documents stuff. =)
i think i'll be a bad host.
instead of telling how
good and sugary singapore is to him,
i told him the negative parts,
parts such as,
how ppl can be so inconsiderate,
inpolite and rude.
blalala.....
haha....

on the way back home,
i came to know
this caucasion lady.
she sat beside me on the train.
then she asked me on how to go to
tanjong pagar railway station.
we talked and talked.
and i found out,
she's from holand and backpacking ALONE!
omg lah.
how daring of her.
she flew to aussie, then to s'pore.
then talking train to thailand
then go to malaysia, back to singapore
then to aussie
and finally back home in holland.
haha.
so daring.

got back home by 2pm.
saw some chinese people processions....
interesting...
once home,
i was super shagged.
had a nap.
woke up by 6pm.

prepared and rushed out.
due to the fact that alice
was already in the cab and on
her way to my place to pick me
up for dinner before band prac.

there were 3 guest who came over my place.
my grandma, grandad and uncle.
came and 'salam' them.
i was rudely shocked when my own mom
rejected my offerings.
WTF.
seriously,
i've done my best.
and i GIVE UP!

ate
some mixed rice
and off for sws band prac.
omg.
there were 6 alto sax lah.
there was supposed to be
2 first alto,
3 second alto,
2 tenor,
1 baritone
for the beautiful sunday concert.
BUT,
one tenor is not performing.
asked bernard whether i can transfer down
to tenor to help out elliot.
he agreed immediately.
omg.
haha.
now i need to HUNT for tenor reeds and ligature.
=(

$$$ fly away.

after practice,
we went home.

day by day,
the clique is seperating.
=(
ps: you are not even good enough
to say those words to demoralise
other players. you are none better.

PEACE OUT!

*THINGS I CANT WAIT TO COME*

THINGS I CANT WAIT TO COME!!

FRIDAY (13 JULY 2007)
omg. didnt realised its gonna be
friday the 13th.
anyways,
going out with jon, alice and kenny.
movie->dinner->clubbing (most likely).


SATURDAY (14 JULY 2007)
collin and melvin should be
booking out by then.
AND I MISS THEM!
i miss going out with just the four of us..
alice-colin-melvin-me.
=(


SUNDAY (15 july 2007)
dylan flying off in style to aussie.
haha. faster finish up your last semester
and be in singapore for good can?!!!


TUESDAY (17 JULY 2007)
mervin kor finally booking out.
and he promise to hang out and meet.
haha.

PEACE OUT!

*bar opium*

oh well.
overslept for sectional this afternoon.
i'm so sorry
BETTY GYM GOH YI MEI!!!!

erm.
slept at 5am.
and the next thing i knew,
i woke up at 6pm
with both my grandma and grandpa
starring at me.
*freaky*

it was 6pm.
and the best part was
i'm supposed to work at 6pm!
aha.
sms-ed ramesh and said,
i'll be there by 7pm instead.

had a quick dinner with family
before i left.

and i almost talked to mother.
but i just not able to mumble
any words.
haiz.
i guess its too late.
i cant talk/look at mother.
and dylan,
it's not my ego.
i just cant ok.

reached work by 7pm.
was stationed at bar.
help both beverage runner and bar indoors.

sam is damn funny lah.
he pulled me and JJ over to this caucasion couple
and introduce us.
wth.
haha.

work was fun.
especially with bar opium.
working with restaurant,
you'll be constantly be
under pressure.
but with bar,
it's at your own pace.
more 'friendlier' environment.
haha.

left by 11pm after supper.
talked to jon abt some band matters and
the outing on friday.
=)
it's gonna be a blast!
=)

then on my way home,
talked to kenny.
cant recall what was it about.
but i'm sure it was just
rubbish to keep me
occupied till i get home.

oh ya.
and important topic raised my kenny.
how to save money!

i've just realised,
i receive a total of $800-$1200/month.
from allowance and pay checks.
thats alot lah!!!
but i always find myself struggling by at times.

there must always a minimun of $50 in
my wallet so i can feel 'secure'.
i dont know why.
then if it became lesser,
i will withdraw more.
till my money depleted.
how?how?
i'm not a spoilt person FYI.
but i spend money like water....

someone please suggest a way which
i can save?
=x

PEACE OUT!

*bDaEs*

11 JULY 2007

exactly 20 years back,
2 of my most closest friends were given life!
=)

*****************
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH (caca aka tetek)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICE (auntie) *****************

now ladies,
you are no more a teenager.
ahaha.
so yeah,
now you are a sophisicated
and mature young ladies (YA RIGHT!)
heh...
all the best,
and have a pleasant bdae.

best wishes,
johan ezran

ps: i wished them exactly on 12am on the dot.
hope to be the first one!
hee..


PEACE OUT!

*SHAGGED*

alright.
had less then 2 hours of sleep.
was talking to dylan the whole night!
i'm so gonna miss you when u are
going back to aussie.
hurry up and finish your last sem
and come back here to singapore for good.

and btw, thanks for hearing me out last night.
really appreciated it.

anyways
today worked 10am till 11pm =_=!!
came early.
had a short breakfast.
and started setting up for lunch.

we did it so fast till we almost complete those tables
for dinner.
hoho.

BEFORE LUNCH.
station a

station b

outdoor (i set this table ALONE) =) rysa (new trainee) and i rysa (new trainee) and i sharon (my fav dessert chef) and i. =)

lunch was quite boring.
then during setting up for dinner,
jaz and i were to set up indoor.
it was damn fun.
haha.
we (she) bitched about everything!
=)

around 5pm,
veron and i were
struggling to cope
with the flow of reservations.
2 phones kept ringging
over and over again!
omg lah!!!!

then it was dinner time.
as usual,
during briefing,
jas and i picked up those
wrong grammer, pronounciation... etc
made by the managers.
yes,
we were mean.
lolx.
=)

i was station to do floor.
station D with roy.
anna (new trainee) was attached to me.

omg.
it was super busy lah!
i totally forgot to teach anna.
and ya.
got 'screwed' up by ROY.

"wad kind of trainer are you?
leaving your trainee behind?"

yes, i know he was just jokingly
commenting it.
but i somehow was affected by it.
=x

what can i do?
it was super busy,
saras and i were running.
literally RUNNING!

once the pace starts to slow down,
i start teaching anna basic stuff.
eg, presentation of wines,
serving amount for still/sparkling/red wine/white wine,
folding of linens.
blalala.
basic stuff lah.

but then at the end,
i told her...

"the most important thing that you must
be able to do is 'a fake smile'"
yeah.

i'm known for being plastic.
but wth,
being in f&b line,
YOU HAVE TO BE PLASTIC!!
=x

one of my previous trainee,lokesh came back to visit.
=)
sort of like missing his crappy-ness.

had a wierd supper.
i mix hanoi chicken soup
with larb kai and campasak.
end product.
it's damn nice i tell you!!
=)

before i left,
took a pic with anna.see....
she can be plastic TOO!
=)

walked over to raffles place mrt with adi.
slid down in between this escalator!
damn fun. 2nd time doing it.
=)
adi soon left to take his train.
i walked over to my bus stop.
talk to kenny on my way back.
and reached home before 12am.

when i came back,
i had a pleasant surprise.
both my grandparents came over and staying over!
i love them so much!
=)

PHEW!
hope my parents dont find out i'm working!
=)

PEACE OUT!

*different spectrum of emotions*

got home from work.
talked to kenny on my way home.

once i got home,
experienced different spectrum
of emotions......

*happy*
one of my trainees,
chatted to me online.
i miss her so much.
COME BACK TO SINGAPORE
MALIBOG!
cindy
******

*sad*
my ex chatted with me.
kept reminising about the
past.
i hate the feelings.
i seriously hated it.
i'm still not over you.
damnit!
******

*more sad*
cant solve a simple maths
impossed by kenny.
wth
******

*jealous??*
ok.
i'm having mixed feelings now.
read a blog,
and comfirmed.
i'm shocked....
erm....
maybe?
haiz.
FUCK.
i just dont know.
wads the matter with me
******

QUESTION
do u ever had this feelings of
being attracted to someone.
NOT due to their looks,
but somehow by their innocence,
gentleness and what's in their heart.
and the best part,
you are slowly being attracted
to that person...
every moment spend chatting seemed
to be so precious...
and somehow,
you wanna tell them on
how you actually felt for them
but you didnt have the gutts to
due to the fact of being rejected
and risk the friendship you had with the person?

and out of the blue,
you are being told that
he/she is attached?

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?

answer: confused
kinnison

PEACE OUT!

*random feelings*

it seems like years
since i last met you.
every second seemed like eternity.

and the best thing was,
i just knew you.

every moment i hear your
voice on the phone,
i became hyperactive.
it was so difficult to say
goodbye to you.

and we would talked about anything
under the stars.
=)

am i having felings for you?
this fast?

yeah.
it's scary.
i know.

ONLY TIME WILL TELL.
*kinnison*

PEACE OUT!