niGht OutinG......

heyya....

erm...

it's aroud 12.05am

just reached home from band.

yet i STILL went out.

lol!

erm.

went out with MY sis and shuk.

drove around singapore

as usual...

looking for SCARY places...

but nothing much happened.

went to

upper seletar reservoir

-pics-
went up this tower.

then we went to

yishun dam

-pics-

hahax. took alot of

'drama' photoes

hahax.

it was FUN

we slacked there lo!

till about 5.30am,

we reached home..

i didnt go school today.

coz i know

Ladee_sya not there...

so LAZY to go lo!

and ya. didnt go for

POLY 50 event.

erm.

today,

finalised on my project.

basically nothing much

happened today...

oh ya.

took an online test..

a personality test.

quite accurate...

Lau_gong also

got quite accurate ALSO.

should try IT out ya?
http://quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

my results were

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

erm....

enjoy!

PEACE OUT!

p0Ly 50 [2nd rehearsal]

lol!

its been awhile

since i updated.

well...

.

.

[-FRIDAY-]

nothing much happened.

had a rehearsal for the

[poly 50]

stupid thing.

haha.

we were to play

the STUPID song over

and over again!

lol!

.

.

[-SATURDAY-]

erm....

did a VIDEO for our

Community Service

project/presentation.

thanks ~Darl~

haha.

for HELP...

and for STAYING over!

really.... thanks!

erm....

.

.

[-SUNDAY-]

had an unexpected GUEST...

hehe...

my COUSINS from malaysia...

lol!

had alot of catching UP to do...

and.

at around 12AM,

me, my sis, shuk, kak lyn and sham;

went GHOST hunting.

lol!

it was COOL!

only ME and sham could see.

basically, sham could SENSE

and i could SEE.

we went to this undertunnel

under the BKE.

pics taken by me!

WOW! i can assure u that place is...

er.... SUPER haunted.

erm

then we went to OTHER places

including the cemeteries in

Lim Chu Kang....

it seems PEACEFULL there.

anyways, after that

we went to SLACK

at labrador park...

there is when i realised,

i have to let go

of my PAST relationship.

i have to open up to OTHER ppl.

i cannot believe that we will

be together again

since the other party

had already MADE it clear

that there was NO more feelings

between us....

so ya...

went home at 5.45am!

erm....

.

.

[-MONDAY-]

didnt bother to go sch.

waked up at 2pm.

went to sch

for rehearsal.

OMG!

this time there were only

4 saxophonist.

PERFECT quartet.

2 alto.

1 tenor.

1 bari.

lol!

we play all quartet pieces

till the STUPID

rehearsal started...

well.

i felt that it WAS

stupid because

they WERE playin a

computer-generated version

of the song in the background.

and we have to play BELOW it.

what the FUCK right!

might as well

we DONT play at all!

DUH!

his [the composer] reason

for playing the SONG

in the background

was....

he wants the whole song to be

IN tempo with

the chinese orchestra and

the taiko drums...

lol!

FUNNIE guy....

PEACE OUT!

2nd-haLf s@x secTionaLs....

lol....

today...

i over-SLEPT again...

sorrie that i didn't wake 'U' up...

erm....

i woke up at 11am.

just in time to be in school

for afternoon lessons....

bloody SPROG test was

postponed to next thursday...

DAMN!

i have to SP CONCERT next thursday.

and....

i have to present ANOTHER presentation

next thursday!

ARGH!

so many things happening at one time!

erm.....

today had sectionals AGAIN!

lol!

it's like everyday!

pure SIAN-NESS

my lips are super hurt now!

to much pressure.

today sectionals consist

of those playing for 2nd half...

played at food-court 5.

so PAI-SEI leh!

alot of ppl.

then those playing SOLO

have to stand on the chair...

hahax...

i felt that everyone was getting BETTER.

their tone and their skills.

i was stunned....

abit upset that i CANT be as good....

haiz....

but one thing lightened my mood....

JIA WEI commented:

your tone have improved.

it sound good....

lol!

erm.....

then thats it lo!

life is pretty BORING if u are in band.

lol!

tml still have a rehearsal for

'poly 5o'

combining with CHINESE orchestra

and TAIKO drums...

STUPID song!

no BASS (tuba and eupho) part!

and guess wat.

sax section going on FULL force.

out of 15 ppl.

12 ppl performing.

COOL right?

2nd row will be dominated by the

SAXOPHONE section!!

peace out!

s@x freShm@n secti0naLs.......

yawn...

my alarm RANG at 5.55am.

lol.

suppose to wake SOMEONE up

but then, just remembered that

i DONT have to anymore...

i missed those times.

continue sleeping and didn't set

another alarm...

SMART me ya?

*sacarstic*

"oh my gawd"

thats the only FEW words i said

when i woke up this morning.

it WAS 10am.

sch started at 8 am to 12pm.

i was like

*dang*

and...

*yawn*

the bed was calling me....

gab called at 12pm.

asking why i didnt go SCHOOL...

lol....

later went to MEET them at lavender

to make class-tee...

lol!

they just CHECK out the store.

lol!

luckily i went late.

or else wasted my PRECIOUS time....

anyways, after that i went home.

played games.

go msn.

friendster...

*blah lalalala*

same OLD thing.

at 5pm HAD sectional.

it's only for freshman.

to prepare for concert.

lol.

i played the first ALTO part.

hate it.

so high and have alot of 'GLISS' notes.

yucks....

played through freshman musics...

el relicario....

and...

i believe in music...

i believe in music seems

to be an EASY piece...

but i think there is something

difficult about it...

even jia wei said also...

erm....

my guess....

1- alot of tied notes?

2-tempo too fast?

3-the bloody score is DAMN small!

lol!

so yeah.

playing first for both pieces.

felt so demoralised.

everyone was SO good!

esp nurul (bari sax)!

she's DAMN good!

i love her tone!

wah.....

jia wei WAS nice...

she said SORRY in advance...

bcoz it's like everyday we HAD band.

and it is stressful for us...

so thats basically my boring

and dead day....

like wat Ladee_ always say...

"ur live revolves around band"

lol...

i guess it's TRUE...

-peace out!-

had an a arguement with a good friend of my. erm. i was so pissed and so was he. i'm super sorry. i didnt know that Dan was not supposed to noe. it was the first time you scold me back; of course i'm surprised. i cant say that i'm angry because i'm the one who keep telling you not to give in to arguement and stand up for yourself. but wat u said was just hurting. but i'm really glad that we cleared things out. i guess wat i have to say is sorry.

wo0dw!nd sect!0naLs...

today....

i didn't feel like

going to school....

the night was super

COMFORTABLE...

haiz....

anyways....

missed school

in the morning section....

lol!

reached school

at around 12.45pm.

met gab and the rest at

SAA....

went for the class late...

during the break,

we discuss about our class CHALET

and class-TEE...

lol!

erm...

then it was band!

haiz...

i DONT feel like going....

erm....

it was WOODWIND sectionals today.

kinda missed BRASS....

all our parts were straightened up....

i was still SICK.

coughing and sneezing.

sick for like 3 WEEKS straight.

it was not my day today.

everyone could sense

that i was not myself today.

they keep asking me wat happened.

it was NICE...

coz ppl show concern.

but it was super irritating

AFTER one by one asking me!

argh!

but things soon worked

out for me.....

i took this FUNNY shot...

"ah-pui" sleepin!

lol!

so cute.

i had to rush home.

so my SAX pals,

huia pin, han xian and yonqi,

walked together.

they CHEERED me up...

now i realised.

the reason i enjoy BAND so much....

i missed my TRUE friends;

those from AES band...

it the place where i made close friends.

but in SP band,

it's abit different.

i dont really DARE to make friends.

i dunnoe why....

erm...

i really LOVE my section alot.

lol!

SP 2005 saxophone section ROCKS!

peace out!

moving h0use.....

hei....
today WOKE up early about 8am.
*yawnness*

had a quick BATH and had breakfast
together with mom, dad and uncle.

-my mom-

after BRIEF breakfast,

all of us helped out in moving

the stuffs from granny's place.

-door number-

the FEELINGS i had when

i was moving the stuff,

i can't explain in words.

i MISSED my grandma

alot....

just that....

i just put up a STRONG face,

so that no one is sad....

-me doing labour work [rare]!-

we had a few en route

before going to their new house

in sembawang.

after unloading of the stuff,

we began unpacking

my grandma stuff in her room.

but....

LATER, things got worst.

my mom SPRAINED her spine.

she couldn't walk much.

i could feel her ANGUISH,

coz basically,

i've BEEN there.

and later on, a commotion happened.

my grandad was being STUBBORN.

then a shocked thing happened.

FIRST time i saw my mom

shouted in RAGE.

she just stand up.

and charged to my grandad.

she was about to HIT him,

but hit the door instead.

she shouted she HAD ENOUGH.

and said it was his idea

they are moving

and she even THREATNED

to jump down if he

doesnt stop his RUMBLINGS.

it was true.

even i couldn't stand it.

a mini-fight broke up.

i PULLED my sis back

and got HURT.

damn.

it still hurts now!

i myself was affected

by this whole INCIDENT.

i felt i couldn't stand

all this EMOTIONS.

but i was lucky.

i had someone who i could talk to.

thanks for hearing me out!

the atmosphere in the house

was SUPER tense.

i could feel it.

i felt so sad

lookin at my grandma.

she was crying.

she was trying to be strong.

no one seen her cry except me.

i dunnoe....

she's the one who takes

care of me since young...

i felt so HURT seeing her

so SAD...

serious.

i never been so sad before in my life.

but on the outside.

i was showcasing NO emotion at all.

just a BLUNT person.

i dunnoe what to do.

haiz.

just a sad day basically.

before i went home,

i took a pic with my grandma.

If It HuRtS mOrE tO lOvE,

tHeN iT hUrTs MoRe To LoSe

so cherish all the ones you love

-i'm making a video of this event,

you would be able to veiw all my

vidoes once i link it with my pic gallery!-

peace out!

today, when i was taking pics for my video. i saw it again. she was in my grandma room. there was this empty chair with blue cusion in the middle of the room. the whole house was empty. wat was weird, it was in total daylight. i was walking past the room after taking pics in the kitchen. but i saw it at the corner of my eyes. i gather enough courage and took a picture of it. it will be in my video. but it didnt turn up in the pic.....

the m@!d.....

were LATE for class.
took the WRONG bus and stopped
on the other side of SP.
i was lucky everyone waited for me.
or else i have to come back at 3pm
to do it.

erm..
supposed to start by 8am.
but was DRAG till 9am.
bugger!

the class was super COOL!
dealt with micro films,
acids and akali!
super cool.

me and aisyah in class!
Lol!

THEN was PEEE practical.
was simple as usual.

some stuff in the bloody lab!

ps: aisyah had an another
admirer which “the family”
approve of!

Then me and sha slacked in SALC
to burn time!

later, around 2pm, we left.
i changed my clothes to all black.
the theme was 'GOTHIC'
a refreshing change for me!
I wore an eyeliner.
I look FREAKY weird
In the sense, I looked SCARY!

me and sha!

Erm
We took the train to DHOBY GHAUT.
Took more photos!
We did tried to act ‘mysterious’
But we kept on laughing!
It was fun!

-snippets of our time in train-

erm..... we reached PS at around 3++pm.
we went window shopping around..
trying to WASTE time while waiting
for the rest of the peeps!

Later, we went outside
waiting for sha's bf,
dy [still cant rmb ur name]
sorrie! Lol!
He's so quiet at times!
Tried to make him comfy,

but it didn't worked. Haha
Lol!

Bought tix and watch
-THE MAID-

hahax. 'molest!'


Hmm. DERRICK came late.
Our sitting plan.
dy, sha, me, derrick,
zhi qiang, Cheryl and her friend.
Lol!
They were very weird
Sha was HUGGING dy,
Derrick cover his EYES,
Zhi Qiang cover his EARS,
Cherly cover her MOUTH.

lol! 3 MONKEYS!
Only me and Cheryl's friend were
Relax!
Lol!

The movie was pretty great overall.
I would give it a 8/10. a very
touching+scary+sad+screams filling
Movie.

To you guys watching it!
Have fun and enjoy!

Bye!

today, when i was going home. i took 124. the bus stop is quite a distance to home. i saw it again. this time, it was them. i didn't notice them actually. they looked normal. i walked past them. then at a glance i notice smt wrong. not only they were squating down, they were eating. it looks wierd. when i was walking away, i just rmb. ppl are not suppose to eat the food which was suppose to be offered to the dead. i was basically shocked but cool. keepin my coolness, i walked to my house. luckily nothing happened.

-why this happening to me now?-

today, i was in a mess.
i was down and SICK again.
didn't went school.
miss school from 8am to 12pm.

erm....
was FORCED to go to sch to
complete our presentation.

erm...
kind of ENJOY the time
spending with sha, an and gab.
we went off at 4pm as we had
our own plans.

i went to SAX SECTionals today.
it was ok...
hmm...
some how,
the feelin of going to band
sometimes seems DREADED
to me....
nvr had this feelings
when i was in pri and sec sch band.
erm....
things DO change alot.

rush home to complete my presentation
wth. feeling STRESS again;
combining all the slides
and making few adjustments.
but wat had made me feel GREAT was,
the sense of achievement by
completing this project
and how my teamates had put in their BEST!
wish us all the best for tml pr

esentation!

btw, saw one again.

i was on bus 166

on my way home from school.

i was sittin on the 2nd level

on the front left.

the bus reached the

'ports-down' army camp

bus stop.

then

i saw it boarded the bus.

i turn around and saw him

he was on the 2nd floor in

3 secs.

he sat at the back.

the temperature drop as usual.
i was alone.

luckily he was the

'peaceful' type.

reached my stop and i rush out.

gosh.

why can i see them?

i'm i cursed?

emo d@e

today
had been a very stressful day.
presentations have to be done....
layout and searching for sources...
sending and saving surveys....
i was SO freaking stressed-out.
never did i felt this way
since i was in sec 4.

all the past recollection
sailed through me.
all the PAST hatred,
sadness came back.
i thought it has been a phrase
where i had passed through
and OVERCOMED
when i was in sec 4.

i did IT again.
never did it cross my mind that
i might HURT other people
and might even KILL me.
i WANTED a way out.
i was SO stressed up.

a special friend of mine
persuaded me.
never once i felt,
so much LOVE and CONCERN
that it forced me
to bring myself together.

thanks.
you had been my greatest distraction,
yet you have been my savior.
i still love you.

today had been an EMO-day
for me.
hope these feelings would not
bother me again.
i would not like to be
haunted by my dark past......